July 19, 2026

"In five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes, How do you measure a year in the life?"

Hello, readers! Things have been going great for me. My boyfriend visited for about a week and some change ( July 9 - 19 ) and he.. is amazing, my goodness!!! He is so kind, gentle, sweet to me and such a lover. I remember waking up one morning and he told me,.

"Good morning pumpkin, I did the dishes"

... Without me even asking!

We went to the Detroit waterfront, the beach, the mall, a fancy dinner date at an all you can eat sushi resturaunt and our first ever clubbing experience, which made me feel like an adult. We also went to a skimpy graveyard at three in the morning (my first rebellion at age 24) with some dumb ghost apps. Even though he reassured me they were probably scams, and didn't work, I didn't care though. It was so special.

A lot of our time was spent cuddling on my dingy couch and watching shit on my projector. He showed me Rent (and of course, I loved it, much like I love everything he shows me) and the ChrisChan Documentary. skull emoji.

I remember when I first saw him in person outside the bus station, and he was standing there all by himself. He had a look on him like he expected me to not actually show up, like he was afraid he had just came all the way to Canada only to be abandoned. And for the first time, I did not feel nervous meeting someone online in person and I went right up to him and hugged him as tight as I could. It felt like something I was destined to do.

His skin is so soft, especially the cheeks on his face. That quickly became my favorite place to kiss, and I'd ''attack him'' (multiple little kisses all over his face) and he would just giggle and squeeze his eyes shut. I had learned each and every one of his little quirks, like the wrinkles beside his eyes when he smiles, or how his pupils dilate when he looks at me. Or how, when we're on the couch watching shows, he gets slightly offended when I put my arm around him because 'that's his job'. I have fond memories of me cooking dinner or breakfast for him, and he'd come up behind me and hug me with his chin on my shoulder. He liked everything I cooked for him and acted like it was the best thing he had ever tasted.

We ended up going to this disco club on the night before he was supposed to leave. Apparently it was Love Island themed - not that either of us ever watched a single episode of Love Island - but for a place called 'Disco Inferno' it was.. not disco at all!! They did not play any old music ! Which is why I wanted to go, it was mostly 2000s. But maybe that was because of the themed night.

I was so nervous at the start and I felt so fat and ugly in my little shorts and belled sleeved turtle neck. Everyone else there was dressed for clubbing, in skimpy dresses and tiny shorts, and there I was looking so out of place. But my boyfriend pulled me onto the dancefloor after two drinks, and pulled me out of my shell at the same time, and we danced until the club closed at 2 AM. It was awesome, he looked so happy even though we were both so sweaty. We would kiss in small increments and would not even give a shit if someone was judging us because we are both two very obviously transmen in a public club surrounded by cis, straight couples.

The beach we went to was this little 'secret beach' I had discovered last summer - right near the water in a little beach town, with smooth sand all the way down the water. He had gotten a little tent for us to sunbathe and put our beach things in, and he was so silly the entire time! He carried me around the water and I sumo wrestled him under a couple times, y'know, as guys do. He put a flower in my hair at the end of the day, before we went home. I felt so pretty.

We also went to an all you can eat sushi restu raunt and oh my god that was so fucking good. Just the sushi and tempura though - the rest of the menu, like the rice bowls and ramen, were.. haha oof. As my boyfriend said, the ramen tasted like "dirty dishwater". And it totally did.

He brought his little digital camera everytime we went out to take photos of everything and anything. And for alot of the time I thought on why a guy like that would be with a guy like me willingly, the one who clings onto him when we went to the movie theatre to see the Backrooms movie (which was great and terrifying, by the way) and the one who hogs the blanket and is cranky in the morning. But the night before he had to leave, when he clung onto me and cried in front of me for the first time, I realized how much he loved me. And when we were sitting outside on a bench waiting for our cab home after our beach trip, under a bunch of string lights, he held my hand and said I was beautiful. And that's when I knew he would be my husband one day. I felt a zing!!! (crowd goes wild)

He told me I was beautiful while kissing my hand like I was a princess, and time went still. It's hard to explain, but I could not stop smiling. My chest felt all warm and it felt good in my eyes to look at him. I probably looked silly.

There is so much more I could say. I love my boyfriend. He comes back this October for his birthday.. and I already have a few ideas on what to get him!

Till next time!!