August 13, 2026

Bit of a weird dream today.. (like every other night)

My boyfriend and I had taken a trip to Japan for god knows what reason, and we arrived at the airport in the middle of a thunderstorm. Was a bad one too. But on our way to our accomodations we ended up getting stuck in this train station loop? It was like a train car, but it went on forever, and never stopped. Everything was in a melancholic greenish blue hue (kinda like Silent Hill 2) and all the other passengers just looked so.. Sad. Lots of salarymen, business women and office workers. It felt like we stayed on this train for hours and when I turned to tell my boyfriend something, he was gone. So like any sane person I pulled out my phone and started texting him. Lol.

It was at this point where I felt really ill all of a sudden. Super nauseous and like my insides were turning into liquid, and I leaned over and started throwing up mass amounts of blood. But none of the passengers seemed to care or even look at me. I started crying and spam texting my boyfriend, probably asking where he had gone, but no response. I kept throwing up blood and when I looked at my surroundings again, all the passengers were gone and it was just me, by myself, alone. The dream stayed like this until I woke up, just sitting in my seat either crying or oozing blood from my mouth. I have no idea what this means, but googling it tells me "deep emotional release, high stress, or getting rid of toxic feelings. It usually means you are holding in too much pressure, anger, or hard truths that your mind urgently needs to let go."

The only thing I can think about being stressed about is money and my disability application.. I am putting so much pressure on myself all the time.. Maybe this dream was a sign to chill out and be kinder to myself..

But alas!!! I shall update you all when I have my next interesting dream! :)